You may have known me on DeviantArt, or on Wonderland Online community forums. But how you met me isn’t much important, considering I am the very same person, no matter where and how you’ve met or heard of me.
I like to draw, write and play games. I like day-dreaming until I actually lose the notion of time.
Have you ever really tried to day-dream? Intentionally? Ideas will pop into your head one after another, just like the way it happens when you’d write in your diary. This is so useful at times… Especially for whose who share the same hobbies with me, writing and drawing. Maybe day-dreaming isn’t always enough to give me the spark of energy I need to do a full drawing, but in writing it’s a real blessing. I get to think, and re-think of all my ideas.
The re-thinking actually got me annoyed with myself. What will the readers say when they will notice how I wrote two spin-offs of a story I had in my mind, and now, when I want to use it as a manga script, it’ll be going differently again?
Of course, I am grateful my thinking in story-making has evolved over the years, and a new manga script will not make the readers say “I read the story, now I expect all to go the same in the manga…
The re-thinking is actually hard, even cruel at times, when it’s about drawings. Words are possible to edit and change, but on drawings… it gets me furious when I realize something looks terribly wrong with my sketches. “Wait! This isn’t how it looked in my mind!” or “What the hell was I thinking when I drew this?” are the factors which make me overuse the eraser and the paper will become so stained from deep pencil strokes that I want to throw it all away.
Day-dreaming can be very good and gives me bright ideas, but it’s at times it’s tough to throw away a sketch that valued a few precious hours of work. And that’s how I have a huge stack of sketches that I just keep just to know they weren’t thrown in the garbage, because I care about them too much!
